Ten years ago today, the most amazing, and vibrant, and daring, and adventurous, and loyal, and huggable, and beautiful little boy returned to his Heavenly Father.
My heart broke into a million pieces that day. I truly didn't think I could survive the pain of the heartache of missing him.
Fortunately, I know that I have a loving Father in Heaven, and he has a plan for all of us, and it is a plan of Happiness. One day I will see this beautiful boy reunited with his family, and the joy of that moment will be compensation for the heartache of today.
For years the song 'Streets of Heaven' would play in my head when ever I thought of Isaak.
Well it must be kind of crowded on the streets of
Heaven so tell me what do you need her for
Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever
but right now I need her so much more
She's much to young to be on her own
barley just turned seven
So who will hold her hand when she crosses the streets
of Heaven
Lord don't you know
she's my angel you've got plenty of your own
And i know you hold a place for her but she already got
a home
well I don't know if your listening
but prayin's all that's left to do
So I asked you Lord have mercy
You've lost a son once too.
Heaven so tell me what do you need her for
Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever
but right now I need her so much more
She's much to young to be on her own
barley just turned seven
So who will hold her hand when she crosses the streets
of Heaven
Lord don't you know
she's my angel you've got plenty of your own
And i know you hold a place for her but she already got
a home
well I don't know if your listening
but prayin's all that's left to do
So I asked you Lord have mercy
You've lost a son once too.
And it must be kind of crowded on the streets of Heaven
so tell me what do you need her for
Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever
so tell me what do you need her for
Don't you know one day she'll be your little girl forever
but right now I need her so much more
Lord I know that once you've made up your mind there's
no use in beggin'
So if you take her with you today will you make sure
she looks both ways
And would you hold her hand when she crosses the
streets of Heaven
Lord I know that once you've made up your mind there's
no use in beggin'
So if you take her with you today will you make sure
she looks both ways
And would you hold her hand when she crosses the
streets of Heaven
As much as I would like to think of Isaak as the eternal little three year old full of mischief and joy, abounding in trouble, being chased by nurturing grandma angels, when I am still, in my heart I see a man large in stature like Nephi, steadfast and true like Mormon, passionate and determined like Captain Moroni, brave and loyal like Ammon.
I see a Guardian of Virtue, I see a servant of the Lord working silent miracles in our lives.
Several years ago, I think Ethan was 5, we were camping, enjoying a quiet moment in the shade. The canopy of trailer that we were sitting under ripped, the aluminum brace broke and swung down, giving me a pretty good thump on the shoulder. The end of the canopy, that swung with the most force, stopped less than two inches from Ethan's head. We all agreed immediately that our guardian angel had been there that day. A few days later we were talking about the incident again. I mentioned to the kids that maybe Isaak was our guardian angel that day. My heart instantly filled to bursting when I mentioned Isaak, and I knew I had unwittingly spoken the truth.
How beautiful is it to know that not even death can break the bond that unite us as family.
I love you forever Isaak!
